Where is the time going?

Sweet Charlotte is now over 4 months old!  She is growing so quickly.  We went for her four month check up yesterday.  Baby girl is now 14 pounds and 11 ounces and 24.75 inches long.  Where did my tiny little baby go?  Time is going by so quickly! 


Tomorrow will  mark one year ago that we finally got the BFP we'd been praying and not so patiently waiting for!  What a difference a year can make!  I felt so much excitement and fear.  I prayed and prayed that this baby would make it, and she did!  I am so thankful for my rainbow baby.  I will never understand why some babies don't make it.  I can just be thankful for what I now have and continue to miss what I've lost.  I still miss baby Tyler very much. 


I am having a bit of anxiety about returning to work.  Charlotte's first day with our babysitter is this Monday.  She will go 2-3 times a week until August.  I am just going to miss her so very much.  My heart is broken and torn.   I keep telling myself that I need to be thankful for all of the time that I've had with her.  Many people don't get that much time off.  However, I am also excited about the upcoming school year.  I really LOVE teaching, and I have missed that also.  It's so hard, but everything will be fine.  I am sure as time goes on it will get easier to leave her.  I know she will be very well taken care of.  That is not a worry for me.  I am just going to miss her.  I am also thankful to have a job that will allow me to have more time with her than many other occupations.  I will have weekends, holidays, and summers.  My heart is just so torn.

I continue to be in a good place.  Charlotte brings so much more to my life than I've ever imagined.  Every little thing she does amazes me and entertains me!  Her little cheeks are quite full now, and I just can't kiss them enough!