Monday, February 28, 2011

Doing Better Than Expected

Well, I find myself in the same position once again. AF arrived with a vengeance on Thursday morning. Usually I go into a bit of a slump the first few days (or weeks) after AF arrives. However, I am doing well this round. I knew not to expect too much this round because my body did nothing it was supposed to. Temps were all over the place. If I had to guess, I would say that I didn't even ovulate this month. Doesn't take a genius to know that you can't get pregnant if you don't ovulate. Anyhow, I am really okay. I didn't have much hope for this cycle, so the failure doesn't sting.

I had another great weekend. The hubby and I spent Saturday a motorcycle stunt show thing. There is a fancy word for it, but I can't think of the word right now. I found it to be a little nerve wracking, but entertaining. It was just nice to be out as a couple. Lately I've been busy doing things with others. We got the house cleaned up yesterday. I watched the Oscars last night, and I stayed up way later than what I should. Tonight I'm exhausted and looking forward to heading to bed early.

Pretty boring post, but all in all I am feeling good and doing well. The dieting and exercising is still progressing slowly but surely.

I am really looking forward to this Friday because I only have a 2 day work week next week. Thank God Louisiana celebrates Mardi Gras!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

A Great Weekend...

I had a pretty great weekend. I am reminded that despite my struggles, my disappointment, and my frustration--I still have a life to live. I feel like sometimes I become so consumed with TTC and grieving for the loss that I am missing out on life.

I had a really great weekend. Friday night I went to bed early(as a first grade teacher I am super-exhausted on Friday nights and it is nearly impossible for me to stay up past 9). Saturday night my friend S and I (who not only worked together in college, but also shared an apartment with) went to a Brad Paisley concert. We had so much fun. Just us two girls. It was so nice to get out and have fun. I didn't get home until 2!!! I can't even begin to tell you the last time I stayed out so late!

The hubby and I also discussed other plans. Because our insurance covers no IF costs, our finances are more strained. It is really quite frustrating. However, my hubby and I decided that we are going to plan to go on a cruise for our anniversary in November. It is still a long time away, so we will have something to look forward to. I think what we concluded is that this is a very stressful and difficult time in our lives. Come what may, we don't want to look back years from now and not have any or few positive memories. Life is happening all around us, and I don't feel like we are a part of it anymore.

So, this is it for now. We are trying to get back in the game of Life. Wish us luck!

Friday, February 4, 2011

Freezing Over Here!

Hello all! It is so cold here in South Louisiana. I did not have to work yesterday or today because of the potential of icy roads. We southern folks aren't used to driving on ice:) So, I have been home catching up on the DVR and watching TV. During football season, I don't have time to catch up on the weekends.

I find myself in a much, much better place. I do feel HOPE. I pray for the blessings I long to have. All I can do is pray.

The weight loss journey is still going well. Each week I have a loss. Some weeks a bigger loss than others, but I'll take it! I feel like I might be in control of at least one aspect of my life:)

I just feel better. I feel more at peace. I am so thankful to God for that. I appreciate all of your kind thoughts and words. It helps me more than you know.

My friend whose baby shower I helped with was enduced last night. I haven't heard any news yet today. She is having her baby right around the corner from my house. I don't know yet if I will be able to go to the hospital and visit. I haven't held a newborn since my loss, and I don't know if I'll be able to. I am not going to force it. I may wait a bit and go visit when they are at home. Then if I have a breakdown, maybe there won't be as many people there to witness it:)

I pray that you are all doing well and keeping warm in this insane weather.